What has happened to gay male porn? What has happened to gay male self-image?

The truth is Gajdics has been constructing, construing, maintaining, or just plain arguing with, his own sense of masculinity for as long as he can remember.

Whether it’s with a tennis racket, or an aluminum baseball bat, batting while screaming away the gay just doesn’t work.

Peter Gajdics begins treatment with his surrogate mother, Alice, in another excerpt from his memoir, CROSSING STYX.

The latest excerpt from the memoir by Peter Gajdics.

Peter Gajdics workshops his memoir, CROSSING STYX, at Lambda Literary Foundation’s 2010 “Writers’ Retreat for Emerging LGBT Voices,” in Bel Air, California.

Gajdics prepares to join the Lambda Literary Foundation 2010 “Writers’ Retreat for Emerging LGBT Voices.”

In 1995, Peter Gajdics left six years of “therapy” geared at trying to “change” him from homosexual to heterosexual, but questions lingered; a contradiction remained whereby sexually, he had never not been attracted to men, while mid-point in the therapy he believed himself to be, resolutely, “not homosexual,” that he was, in fact, “changing.” How could he have experienced both to be true? If it had not been his same sex desire, then what, if anything, had he been “changing”?

Is psychiatry’s treatment of “Gender Identity Disorder” a backdoor maneuver to prevent homosexuality?